An other word about word counts…

Just a quick little post.  I changed my word count goal for my current project.  It was 100,000 but I changed it to 75,000.  I did this for a few reasons.  One, it is a little easier of a goal to aim for; two, I have done a lot of research about word counts and it varies but the average is between 50,000 to about 95,000.  Most publisher get a little scared of the six figure word count. And the third reason, I an so tired of trying to keep track of all the zeros!  Okay, that is all.  Check out my little meters off to the right side.  Have a good night!

FINALLY! An idea!

Okay, so yesterday I posted about trying to find an idea for a novel that I could write about for NaNoWriMo.  Well, I got an idea and it’s freaking awesome.  It is a little complicated but I just need to work on the plot and stuff like that and I think I can make it work.  I still have some some details to workout.
On top of that, I work up so some sort of nasty head cold.  That makes thinking even harder for me…  ‘Cuz thinking tends to be a weak spot for me. Just kidding.  As you haven’t already realized, I’m kinda odd.  Like odd being the mildest thing that I can think of describing myself.
Anyway, back to my plot thing.  I’m like super happy about this. I love the how plotting process, I know I’m kinda odd but it’s so much fun.  I mean really anything is possible during this stage of the game.  I get to know who the characters are; get to know where they live; what their past is and most of all, I can craft the events that are going to change them.  I get to create what happens and what (I hope) a reader will enjoy.  So, I’m pretty happy.
So I’m going to go get some writing done.  Enjoy!


So, again I am bringing your attention to my word count, again.  Well, it’s more for me than anything else.  Since the 24th, I have written 4320 words.  For me that is a lot within a few days.  I’m lucky if I get that many words written in a week or two weeks.  It is pretty awesome.  I am getting closer and closer to meeting my goal.  I am aiming to get the first draft done by Halloween.  It’s going pretty well for once.  (DOn’t jinx it

Then I am going to be working on my NaNoWriMo project.  And for the people who have no clue what I am talking about here is the website for you guys to check out –> Check it out!  Also, here is my profile for it –>  I am still working on filling it up but you can watch my word count add up during November.  I just have to get around to plotting out something for my November project.

I think that is all for the moment.  Enjoy!

How to Spot a Zombie

I’ll keep this brief.  Okay, so to take my mind off the rest of the world, I thought that I would share a piece of my writing. This is my attempt at description. Any feed back would be awesome. So, enjoy!

How to Spot a Zombie

Zombies are something that most people put off into the realm of make believe. I am here to at least let you know what a zombie is so if you run into one, you can recognize it. You do not believe in zombies? That’s okay, just don’t coming running to me about it when you are stuck. Okay, on to the characteristics of the zombie!

First, let’s go over what it looks like. Seeing it the easiest way of clarifying is it’s a zombie or something else. The zombie is really a rotting, human hunter with limited intelligence. This pretty much boils down the fact that all the zombie wants to do is feed on human flesh. First and foremost, the zombie walk is the most recognizable feature it has; the zombie shuffle. It pretty much the zombie is dragging one of its rotting feet behind it. Next to the easily recognized zombie walk, the zombie body is another easy indicator of a zombie. The flesh tone of a zombie is in the off white almost this kind of blue/ gray tone. It lost the rosy pink tones that normal humans have, nor are they still intact. That means they usually are missing chunks of muscle from limbs and from the abdominal region. Side note, you can usually tell the age of a zombie by how bad decomposed it is; for example, if there is a lot of muscle or flesh missing, it’s an older zombie. A final attribute for the zombie is that the clothing (if any) that the zombie is wearing is usually blood soaked and torn. This is similar with the hair, if the zombie was once a female with long hair, the hair will be in disarray and blood soaked.

Smell is known to trigger memories, so logically once you smell a zombie you will have memory of it. For those who do not know what it smells like, the known words are hard to describe the zombie smell. One common description of the smell is usually the smell of death. Anyone that works in the healthcare field know this odor. It is often a heavy, putrid, terrible smell; it is hard to forget. Zombies are soulless, decomposing corpse, so rotting and decaying is common description of the smell. Also, if you are part of the few, the smell of coagulated and old blood is another trigger for the stench. Once you sniff a zombie, it is something you always remember.

The zombie doesn’t actually make sound. It is an urban myth that zombies moan the word “brains” since once the zombie’s brain does not function as it once did when it was human. There is no control over the vocal cords. The trademark moan is just wind moving through the decaying vocal cords. Have you every blown across the top of an empty water bottle? It is similar process here. The only other sound a zombie makes is from the “zombie shuffle” which sounds like shuffling feet. Other than those two sounds the zombies are silent and even more scary then any horror movie scores.

The zombie is a decaying human eating machine and anyone who is stupid enough to try to touch it or for that matter eat it, have some serve mental problems. From what research suggests is that zombies are just walking corpses – cold, dead and rotting. So, one can just guess that is it like touching a dead body – stiff, cold, maybe a like slimy and depending on the age, easy to break because of decay. (Ever touch rotting wood? Apply that to a human body.) Eating flesh from a zombie is strongly advised against. Eating rotting flesh of any animal is a danger to one’s health.

One someone has mastered what a zombie looks like and sounds like, the rest tends to fall into place. There may not be a classroom test on this but surviving depends on knowing this knowledge. Memorize this knowledge. It will be used more in real like instead Pythagorean theory.

A second post in a day? Say what?

This will be a very short update since I feel that no one has been paying attention to my word count.  Over on the upper right side of my blog is a little grey meter.  It looks like this –>  

Well, I decided to update and add a second one in the same area. It’s a little bigger and I think it will get more attention.  An FYI, I just picked 100,000 words as a goal.  It might take less, it might take more.  But I am kinda keeping score and track to see how it goes.  I just thought that I would kinda point everyone in that direction.  Other than that, I think I will continue to write.

So keep an eye on that little guy.  I know this is just the very first step on a very long journey but I have faith that I can do. I just have to stick to it and actually finish something that I started. I CAN DO IT!

Short and sweet and scared

So I haven’t updated this for over two weeks.  It is really bad and I am sorry.  But I got a sudden fear for doing anything with any of my writing.  It sounds kinda odd but I would sit at the computer and have my fingers on the keyboard but all I got was a racing heart.  My mind was telling me that I should be anywhere but at the computer.  It was tough but I finally broke through it.  It took time but I feel like I am in a better place now.  I have gotten more writing done.  I have to start plotting for myNaNoWriMo project, soon.  So the up coming months I am going to be a little busy.  I will still be adding some of my older works here and there.  I promise that they shouldn’t be too long.  Anyway, I’m in a writing frenzy in my head, so I am off to continue to write.  Enjoy!

Want Some Drugs?

So, I thought that I would share some of my writing with you guys.  This is one of the my research papers from college.  It has to do with medications and schizophrenia.  It was a very interesting topic to research and I though that I would share it with you guys.  The topic might seem boring to some some people so my goal of this piece was aimed to entertain and inform.  So I want to know what you guys thing about this topic and my writing.  Weigh in!
I also put my works cited page so you guys can check out some of the sources for yourself!  ENJOY! 

Want some Drugs?
            To solve a problem – take a pill.  To fix someone’s mood – take a pill.  To chill out – take a pill.  To perk up – take a pill.  To stop hearing the ‘voices’ – take a pill.  To stop seeing ‘things’ – take a pill.  To stop an addiction – take a pill.  In a country that is as advance as the United States, it is no wonder why there is a pill for pretty much anyone who has an “issue” (the United States do not have problems). This pill craze has turned an addiction to prescription medication. It’s okay to have, since it is given by a doctor and street drugs are still ‘really bad’.  There is a problem with all these medications, it’s easy to over medicate.  People with serious mental health problems are being over medicated.  Antipsychotics are the most popular medication in The United States <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033  <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  This might be a shock to a small few who may have wool over their eyes, but antipsychotics are used may the double digits by people with schizophrenia and other serious mental health problems <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  This is just a classic case of over medication and it is not the people with the problems that are profiting.  Although medications help people with schizophrenia build, manage, and maintain a functioning lifestyle, medication is only a short term “easy fix” to the actual problem and over-medicating is stripping away people’s choices and abilities while big drug companies are profiting.
            Schizophrenia is a complex disorder to say the least <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Wal04 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Walker, Kestler and Bollini)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  It defined scientific explanation because of the sole reason that no single factor of schizophrenia is common among patients <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Wal04 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Walker, Kestler and Bollini)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Only a small percent of the population, about .4-1.2% (in the United States – these numbers change when it goes global) is affected with the thought disorder and the onset (which means when the first symptoms start to show) is about twenty years old to about twenty-five. <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Tab05 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Taber’s Cyclopedic Medical Dictionary 20th ed)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>  There are other extreme classifications of the disease popping up as young as eleven years old, and during the onset of Alzheimer’s disease<!–[if supportFields]>CITATION Tre05 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Treating and Preventing Adolescent Mental Health Disorders)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>. Symptoms are classified by two types; positive symptoms and negative symptoms<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Tab05 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Taber’s Cyclopedic Medical Dictionary 20th ed)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.   Positive symptoms are not actually “positive” but are the most common and present in many of the cases of schizophrenia.  They are delusions, hallucinations, disorganized speech and other grossly disorganized behavior <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Ame94 l 1033 <![endif]–> (American Psychological Association)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Negative symptoms are missing an emotional factor or difficulty with social functions. The negative symptoms are alogia (it is very little speech or none at all) avolition (is a lack of initiative or motivation) and social withdrawal <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Ame94 l 1033 <![endif]–> (American Psychological Association)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  To complicate things even more, there are four subtypes, they are: paranoid, disorganized, catatonic and undifferentiated. <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Wal04 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Walker, Kestler and Bollini)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>  Each of these subtypes have specific attributes but just for now, paranoid is the best prognosis and catatonic is the worst prognosis.  There are other aspects of schizophrenia that is often over looked like cognitive impairments, physical problems, and neuromotor functions<!–[if supportFields]>CITATION Wal04 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Walker, Kestler and Bollini)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.
            Antipsychotics are a medication group that is for the treatment of psychosis which is an umbrella term which houses schizophrenia <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Tab05 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Taber’s Cyclopedic Medical Dictionary 20th ed)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Antipsychotics seem to be a quick fix to schizophrenia and they are one of the most prescribed medications in the United States <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  There are several medication that are commonly prescribed, a few examples are: haloperidol, Risperdal (which is specifically for schizophrenia!), clozapine, Zyprexa, Seroquel and Geodon.  Each medication has its own uses and how it works; several of the medications are used together even though they achieve the same job by themselves. 
            In the world of antipsychotics, there are two types; typical or first-generation and atypical or second-generation<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Wal04 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Walker, Kestler and Bollini)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  First generation antipsychotics are not often used and they include medications like Clozaril (clozapine is the generic name) and Thorazine (chlorpromazine).  Second generation medications are the most common and more often known medications <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Wal04 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Walker, Kestler and Bollini)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  For example Risperdal (which the generic name is risperidone) is used for the treatment of schizophrenia and it works on the neurotransmitters (serotonin and dopamine) in the brain to help restore normal thinking and normal mood <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION HWi10 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Griffith)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Another common antipsychotic medication is Seroquel (which its generic name is quetapine) and it is also used for schizophrenia and it’s official ‘how its works’ is unknown but it is believed that it blocks certain nerve impulse (which is unknown which ones are blocked but it must be okay because the FDA approved it) between certain nerves<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION HWi10 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Griffith)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  All these medications have side effect.  Some of these side effects are common to all medications, like nausea and vomiting but some are just specific to antipsychotics like: severe drowsiness, involuntary movements, agitation, nervousness and in some cases agranulocytosis [which is an acute disease of a deficit lack of granulocytic white bloods cells<!–[if supportFields]>CITATION Tab05 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Taber’s Cyclopedic Medical Dictionary 20th ed)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>] <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION HWi10 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Griffith)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  There are other medications that are often used to treat schizophrenia as well, but these are often used to treat the side effects from the other medications or other symptoms.  For example, Celexa is often given to help with depression with the antipsychotics.
            Schizophrenics are over-medicated.  The common stereotypes of schizophrenics are two-fold.  There is the common example of the violent killer schizophrenics or the heavy drugged up ones that are like the walking dead.  Which one is most common?  The drugged up one are the most common.  Why?  Because schizophrenics are the most medicated people in the United States by taking these antipsychotics in the double digits are mixing and matching the side effects in epic proportions <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>. The ideal treatment for schizophrenia is a healthy mix of medication, psychological therapy and community support but “In reality, medication is both the first and the only treatment received by many patients.” <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Wal04 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Walker, Kestler and Bollini)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>  Why is medication the first choice?  The only reason is because it is a quick fix, meaning that there is no need to spend time or energy on that person, just let the pill do the work.  This is not the cost effective approach by a long shot. (This topic will be addressed later).   Giving a pill (or a shot depending on the medication specifics) to someone who is acting out or not following the normal pattern of behavior, solves a whole lot of problems for the system (which could be anywhere from a mental hospital to a halfway house to an at home program).  First it takes only one person to administer the medication. This cuts back of the staffing of the system (the less people on the floor means more profit and less cost to the consumer).  Second, once the pill has taken effect, the person is mellow or very often knocked out and unable to ‘cause any more trouble.’  If the person is not doing anything but sleeping, then the staff does not need to worry about them and that means less work load.  The third less thought of reason for the double digit prescribing, it the drug companies are making money on each pill. So, who really is benefiting from this approach? 
            Another problem that comes with treating schizophrenia is treatment-resistance schizophrenia.  Since the jury is still out on the official definition of what is it, the basic, commonly accepted definition is there is a certain amount of medication (usually two different antipsychotics) given during a certain period of time (this period of time is often four to ten weeks of treatment) and that the treatment wears off or just stops working.  There isn’t an exact day (like day seventy-four of medication therapy stopped working) but it there must be a clear difference between when treatment started and when treatment actually started to work until that point in time when treatment stopped working<!–[if supportFields]>CITATION Shi11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Shim)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  The percent of how many treatment resistance schizophrenia is upward twenty to sixty percent of reported cases<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Shi11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Shim)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  There are three important factors on predicting if there is a possibility of getting resistant, they are: “a history of treatment resistance, severe current symptoms, and treatment resistance to current antipsychotic drugs” <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Shi11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Shim)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Treatment-resistance schizophrenia’s main cause is the fact the body gets tired of the drugs in the body and decided not to work.  Ever dealt with a two year old during the peak of the terrible twos? Similar idea here with the rejection of the medication in the body; it is all about medication nonadherence<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Buc11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Buckley)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>. To help resolve the treatment-resistance schizophrenia is similar to have an addiction to a street drug, the person needs to go through detoxification.  Another option on dealing with the treatment-resistance schizophrenia is to drug the person up with Clozapine, which really isn’t helpful because then that just starts another case of treatment-resistance schizophrenia <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Buc11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Buckley)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.
            Another unseen problem with the over-medication of schizophrenics is that the drug companies are making unseen amount of money off of these medications they are pushing. While waiting in a doctor’s office, a typical person can see about three to four different drug representatives coming to see the doctor.  He is not seeing the doctor because of some health problem, but to sell his drug.  He will give out pens, notepads, hand sanitizer and other nick-knacks with the drug he is trying to sell to the masses.  That way, when that person used that pen or the notepad that drug name is remembered and used on other people.  Remember that word of mouth is the best way to sell things!   The doctor is not buying the drug but he is just writing a prescription for it.  It is you who is buying it.  Worldwide, the drug Zyprexa made 4.7 billion dollars.  That is more the Levi Strauss Company made that year<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>. Psychiatric drugs are the number one category of drugs of prescriptions worldwide.  In the year 2004, Risperdal was Johnson & Johnson’s second best selling drug<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Zyprexa alone is responsible for 30% of Lilly’s revenues in 2005 <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  The thing that is important to keep in mind is that the government isn’t paying much for the medications.  In 1999, for every dollar spent on schizophrenia medications, thirty dollars was spent on HIV/AIDS <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Cha08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Barber)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  It’s a good thing that the government is focusing money on thing other than drugging people up, the problem comes to the fact that the American people are paying for these drugs.  Even in 2005, while Lilly settled more than 8,000 product-liability suits for close to $700 million, the drug company would generate $4.2 billion in sales in 2005 alone <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Eva08 l 1033 <![endif]–> (West)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  It is just crazy how people still take these drugs (some are against their will); with the knowledge of the side effects and a company can still out gross the profits for food for the world. 
            There are still a few therapies that help schizophrenics and they use little to no medication.  Of course, based on case by case, antipsychotics are needed, but often they are only needed for short periods of time.  One new emerging treatment for schizophrenia is using organic substance known as bioactive folate, which is found in the leafy green vegetables <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Hes11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Hesselgrave)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  This is not a fix but is a treatment that helps with managing symptoms of schizophrenia and offers a more natural way of creating more dopamine<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Hes11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Hesselgrave)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Other ways of treating schizophrenia is with psychosocial and psychological therapies.  One example of a treatment is cognitive-behavioral therapy or CBT which is the therapies that work on changing automatic thoughts and resulting schemas<!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Opl11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Opler)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  In contrast, cognitive remediation developed by neuropsychologists that use different exercises, many of them are computer-based to help patients with understanding the problems with their processes that lead to disruptions in thinking <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Opl11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Opler)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Compensatory approaches or CR is designed to stimulate new learning, or relearning, of cognitive tasks <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Hur11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Hurford, Kalkstein and Hurford)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Errorless learning or EL people with schizophrenia are taught their mistakes and forced to correct them in an effort to guide future behavior <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION Hur11 l 1033 <![endif]–> (Hurford, Kalkstein and Hurford)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Cognitive adaptation training or CAT introduces environmental adaptations that help people with schizophrenia adjust to a ‘normal’ life. CAT therapy is one of the best therapies because it is like the proverb, ‘give a man a fish and he eats for a day; teach a man how to fish, he eats for a lifetime.’  If someone is taught how to function with the rest of society, that reduces the need for medication.  All of the above therapies invest time, not pills.  These therapies allow schizophrenics to learn new skills while being able to show off their exceptional personalities.
            The United States’ 2002 cost of schizophrenia was estimated to be $62.7 billion. Almost $22.7 billion of the $62.7 billion was spent of direct health care cost.  If you break that down again you are looking at $7.0 billion spent on outpatient services, $5.0 billion was spent of drugs, $2.8 billion inpatient services, and $8.0 billion was spent on long-term care. Other non-health care costs were estimated to be $7.6 billion – this includes arrests and any other non-patient cares <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION WuE05 l 1033 <![endif]–>(EQ)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  Five billion dollars were spent of medications alone in 2002.  Occurring to the US Census Bureau, the average income in the United States is $46,326 a year.  Subtract five billion dollars from forty-six thousand and there will be a large gap.  Why is so much money put toward handling schizophrenia?  It is because of the fear that schizophrenia brings to people.  In 1999, NIH spent $74.65 per person with schizophrenia on research for a cure of some sort <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION The10 l 1033 <![endif]–>(The Internet Mental Health Initiative)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  People are afraid of the unknown.  The less someone knows about something, the more people with start to place bad connotations with it.  News and entertainment media tend to suggest that there is a link of schizophrenia to criminal violence <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION The10 l 1033 <![endif]–>(The Internet Mental Health Initiative)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  When things boil down, most people with schizophrenia just want to be left alone and are very socially withdrawn <!–[if supportFields]> CITATION The10 l 1033 <![endif]–>(The Internet Mental Health Initiative)<!–[if supportFields]><![endif]–>.  (Remember that one of the symptoms is social withdrawal and apathy?)  The only thing that would cause a violent outbreak is often linked to heavy use of drugs and alcohol, which many people know that anyone who heavily uses either of those item have the chance to be violent.  Schizophrenics are not scary, it the response to the disease, that is the scariest part of having he disorder.
            Medications help people with schizophrenia build, manage, and maintain a functioning lifestyle, but medication is only a short term, “easy fix” to the actual problem (it’s like putting a bandage on after open heart surgery) and over-medicating is stripping away people from the world while only big drug companies are profiting.  Not a single day goes by in America that someone is put on more than one antipsychotic.  There are families out there loosing dear loved ones because of prescription drug related deaths or because a family member is lost in an over load of medications.  Schizophrenia is a disorder but it does not make the person.  The person could be a mother, father, brother, sister, grandmother or just a friend that is lost to the over medicated effects of antipsychotics.  What would you do if you see your father drugged up just staring at you? It’s a heart sinking feeling and it hurts more seeing that person a zombie then they actually feel.  So before sending people to get drugged up, there are other solutions then just drugs. It will take time and energy but it will pay off in the long run.  Don’t just let the doctor do the thinking, let the mouth that nature gave you work too!

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Got time?

               So a lot of things have changed since my last post that was just a few days ago.  It is just crazy how fast things can flip around.  I am amazed that I didn’t get whiplash.  It is a very strange thing, and for people who know me, I am very strange.  I feel like I am on the edge of a mental breakdown but I can’t be weak and give up.  I need to push through this.  This is not me; I don’t like giving up.  I pushed through nursing school and mastered it; I can do the same thing here.  I am trying to do a balancing act with my life.  It is currently between my husband having a job, me having a second job and the rest of how I want to spend my time. My husband is currently on a tightrope about having a job or not.  Either way he falls leads to disaster or if he makes it through this, he will be unhappy and shit rolls downhill fast. I am trying to balance a second job but it is failing horribly because when I go to do this second job; no one knew anything about it.  It made me feel like a jackass.  It was pretty bad.  On top of all that is a balancing act about what to do with the time I have left over between my writing and spending time with my family.  I can do this.  I can do anything, I survived nursing school.

            My husband got in an accident at his current place of employment just before Labor Day.  So right now, he is suspended, but be truthful, this isn’t the first time.  It is a bit of a problem but like the times before that, we will just have to deal with and make it though it. It just feels like a slap in the face.  I don’t tend to let a lot of people in on whatever I am working on and once I do, I feel like that life takes the ground from under my feet and lets me fall into this pit of nothingness.  It hurts but I am going to have to use this pain to push me forward.  I just have to remember to use the pain to help me, not hurt me.  This is just a small roadblock and I will kick its ass.
Okay, end of the personal rant.  Let’s get to something with a little ‘matter’.
           I have read a lot of books.  Anything with words in it, I have read it.  I have read all sort of fiction novels, a lot of textbooks, and a lot of books about writing.  (Also, I have read a lot of magazines about writing but that is another topic for another day.)  One of the major things that people say about writing is it is just about sitting down and getting words down on paper or on the screen.  Many of those people say that you have to get passed that interior editor that pretty much everyone has.  For me, writing has about two big problems.  The first is the one I just spoke about.  The second one is time.  It is really a hard to find time to get those words on the paper or on the screen.  Not everyone is a full time writer and for the ones that have to still hold down a full time job to pay the bills. It’s even harder to find time to just write. Time is so important and so many people seem to forget about it.  People worry about their jobs or their money.  Something that I learned from a cousin of mine is that a person can make more money, just not more time.  Time never ‘refills’ itself.   It is something important to keep in mind.

           For me, it came down to what was more important for me and ‘my time’.  I cut out most of the excess TV time.  I cut out a huge chunk of my video game play time.  For school, I have decided to take this semester off (since I have been a full time student since fall 2010)  I have to maintain about 35 hours a week at work to be able to float by.  (I am really hoping that my husband and his job stuff work out so I don’t have to pick more hours or another part-time job.) But I have added a few things for me to do. I have added a little more time to get more reading done.  Plus I am going to be working up to be adding about two hours a day for just writing (for both my current project, my ‘ideas’ and my blog).

That’s right, I have added this lovely blog which will serve more than just one purpose. It will keep me committed to what I have ‘announced’.  Also, it will give me a place to voice my opinions about stuff and maybe give advice about stuff that I found to work.  And at one point, I will edit some of my old school papers and post it here and share them with the world.  *cue the evil laughter*  Okay, so back to reality.  So enjoy.  Until next time.  Have fun!  

Goal Statement

Someone once told me that if you write your goal down, it becomes more ‘real’.  I have tried this one before but failed horribly at it.  I was in the middle of nursing school and was trying to hold down a full time job, a new husband, and a new house.  So here I am trying this, and this time, I will get this achieved!  I will get this done, so here is my goal statement.  I will share more about me later!

My goal is to become a published author.  The first step of this process is to complete the first draft of my current “Untitled Project” by October 31, 2013.  I will take the month of November off from this project and I will partake in NANOWRIMO.  Then, my January 31, 2014, I will aim to have my second draft completed.  At this point I am going to reach out to some of my trusted friends to read my manuscript for grammar and plot problems. Hopefully, with their input, I will be able to begin my third draft and have that draft completed by the end of April 2014.  One last proofreading (possibly by a professional) will hopefully be completed by the end of May 2014.  Once I have a polished and ‘finished’ manuscript, I will start to send it out to different publishing houses (to where and how many different publishes will require research).  By the end of December 31, 2014, if my novel is not picked up or rejected by all the publishers, at this time I will look into self-publishing (which will be reached during the waiting period).  Hopefully (pending saving and more research) I will have my novel published by June 2015.

            As I am working on the project, I am going to start and maintain a blog about my journey through this, working on a project, updates about my project, my thoughts and daily life.  It will be the beginning for my platform.  

I hope you enjoy the ride.  🙂